1) i missed so much of the world’s important news, and my community’s most important news, and i just did not even give a fuck.
2) same for all of the internet.
3) deep, full, pain-free breaths make me quiver a little bit, with trepidation and relief, both.
4) so much time for reflection (only of course after lots of time spent vacillating between rage and self-pity)!!! i have not exactly worked out for myself what it is that i’ve realized, but it has something to do with the illusion of control over that which i think is mine (eg. my goddamn body)
5) new love for nurses, the professional and the unpaid.
6) my boo hosted a radio show over the telepono for me last night. recuperative radio, with four acts: comedy, theater, music and a story. i think there’s a possibility i coulda swung this one even if i were well…… but it was especially soothing because i was sick.
